February 19th, 2010
To kick it off, I said in the last post that I was upset because he spoke his opinion. After I thought about it, I realized that it wasn’t true. I certainly was taken aback by it, and would have, in this case, been happy for him to keep his opinion to himself, but that wasn’t the thing that upset me. What really got under my skin was his assumption that vegetarian + skinny = ED. Other people’s opinions don’t bother me (a lack of tact might), but I know that I can entertain opinions without having it effect my own beliefs. You might call it narrow-minded, I call it wise. I can’t be changed by every opinion I hear! I’d get whip-lash! Ok, glad that’s out.
Back up to Wednesday and I saw this tweet in my feed:
I’m not here to blog about anyone’s thoughts concerning universal/absolute truth, BUT I did minor in Philosophy and I just can’t believe some “philosopher” would say or tweet this! Can anyone else see the fallacy in this age-old argument? The contradiction in this statement screams at me, so I screamed back:
If anyone else would like to give me an argument for objective truth that doesn’t contradict itself IN ONE SENTENCE, then please comment below. But I don’t think it’s possible. It’s not just the sentence, it’s the concept that is self contradictory. You can’t even THINK that are no universal truths without thinking a universal truth. Anyhow, this concludes Abbynormally’s Philosophy 101 TIRADE.
Now onto the less controversial portion of my blog!
Some evil person slipped me some Veritaserum today, because I’m about to spill a lot of beans.
I didn’t ride the bike like I said I would Wednesday night. I figured that studying for the Greek test was more important. I did get a B on the last test, and the truth of it is that I don’t really get B’s. I was one of those I-studied-dead-languages-and-people-and-got-really-good-grades-and-didn’t-party-and-the-only-time-I-left-my-apartment-was-to-go-run-and-on-those-runs-I-listened-to-books-and-sermons people. Or person, because I have yet to find someone else who fits that description. Yup, that’s the truth.
Also I did get up Thursday morning for a 6 mile run. Yup, outta bed by 4:40 and walking out the door at 5 am. But I only ran 4 because I spent almost 15 minutes scraping ice of the Jeep. I did a total of 4 miles in 40 minutes. I think it’s good if you take into consideration the 2 minutes of walking I did while untangling my headphones.
I had a pretty good day expecially compared to my dear friend/co-worker who found out she brought some “visitors” back with her from her Cruise–BED BUGS. Gross! But I was so thrilled by the way I began my day that I treated myself to a soy latte because I exercised before the sun was up!
It was after the latte that we realized my friend lent David that same suitcase for his trip last month. So last night was Operation Bed Bug Prevention. We did some serious looking (thanks to tips my friend received from the exterminator that she’s paying almost $1000 to get rid of her visitors) and we really don’t think we have them. But they can be killed with a steamer (which we have, thankfully), so we steamed and washed EVERYTHING.
And that was the impetus behind cleaning our apartment, too!
Big difference from Wednesday, huh?
This is next Truth is a tough one. (Really wishing there were really no universal truths at this point) I didn’t want to share it, but I have come to love you readers, and this is a blog about my life, so I have take the good with the bad.
I didn’t get into the graduate program that I wanted. I got the letter yesterday. It was rough.
At first I felt like a failure, because in one weekend I got crappy GRE scores and a broken foot. But I know that was my own fault for doing too much and not taking care of myself. I have learned a lot from that experience, so I’m not going to convince myself I failed in any way. Because I didn’t. And as I sat on the couch crying with my husband at my side and my puppy laying on my feet, I knew that my life is full of things that scream “success”–at least the kind of success that truly matters. Like the love of my Savior, relationships, and a sense of humor, and the will to carry on.
I know that this is not what God wants for me at this time. I’m thankful He made it so clear, not many people get a letter saying “GOD DOESN’T THINK THIS IS BEST FOR YOU RIGHT NOW”, but I did. What more can I ask for?!
So am I disappointed? Of course. Clearly it’s something that I wanted or I wouldn’t have applied. But I didn’t make any plans around it, and I wasn’t sold out on it, and from the beginning I had a gut feeling that it wouldn’t happen. Just the size and caliber of the program let me know that I probably wouldn’t be accepted. The odds weren’t in my favor, and I’m not one to ignore reality. I know people who have lost loved ones, suffered broken relationships, been injured and sick…if this is my disappointment, then I’m thankful.
But are my dreams shattered? Not at all. This may open in the future, but in the meantime, I have other desires and interests and plans. And if it never opens in the future, I am ok with that. Whatever it is, I know God has something great in my future, and that is my dream and that is exciting!
This weekend is a weekend of celebrations–2 birthdays and a baby shower! So I’m going to enjoy my “successes” and not sweat the small stuff.
Have you ever suffered a disappointment only to discover it’s a blessing in disguise?