November 13th, 2010
Well it should come to no shock to you after reading my candy bar habit, dough-balls-for-dinner, and dreams of communion bread posts this past week that my pants are uncomfortably snug on me. Unfortunately they’ve been snug for awhile, but I haven’t been doing anything about. Except, of course, complaining to my ever-patient husband.
That’s about to change.
It’s not so much the number on the scale, or that I popped the zipper on my favorite pair of jeans that bothers me so much. It’s that I can’t seem to control my food cravings. Actually, these aren’t really cravings. These are just unhealthy habits. If I want junk I eat it. It seems that since the marathon I haven’t been able to trim my eating to a non-training amount.
After losing 40 pounds and keeping it off for about 4 years, I’m sure you can imagine my horror that all of my hard work will be thrown out the window because I still eat like I have a 20 mile run the next day.
No longer, friends. No longer.
Now before I go one, I want to make it clear that I don’t think I’m “fat”. Not at all.
I don’t really care that I have gained weight. I care that I have gained weight because I haven’t been eating very well. I have learned that if I have negative self-image it very rarely has to do with some number on the tag of my pants or on the scale. It has EVERYTHING to do with how I treat my body.
So I’m proposing a little challenge to myself between now and Thanksgiving. I call it Unstuff This Turkey because it’s not only funny, but seasonal too!
The main part of this challenge is to cut back on sweets. And by cut back, I mean cut them out. Maybe not entirely. Maybe I’ll let myself have a treat a week, but no more dough balls for dinner or candy bar runs to the store. I can fill up on sweet treats like fruits and nuts. Those are better for me and make me feel significantly better too. I need to remind myself of that all the time.
Also I will be eating more salads. When I think back over my daily meals, salads are shockingly absent from my diet. I love salads, but for whatever reason, I don’t want to eat them for lunch. Or dinner. While I’ll still eat vegetables in other ways, like soups, I lack the nutrition that fresh veggies provide.
And finally, I’m going to fight my laziness. This being a running blog (for the most part) you might not think I’m lazy, but I really am! I would looooove to spend all day on the couch with a book or some good movies. Or each season of 30 Rock on DVD. Call me Liz Lemon. I love food and writing to make people laugh. Physical exercise is not one of my favorite things. Running is lucky because I think it’s fun. I promise you that if I didn’t find it so enjoyable, I wouldn’t be doing anything to get my heart rate up. Not ever!
I’ll allow myself one day of rest, but otherwise I will be moving. Whether it be running, yoga, or the bike trainer, I’m going to be sweating. I certainly have the time now that my travel season is over.
I’m planning this challenge between now and Thanksgiving. It will be really hard for me, I am sure! But I’m hoping that with some discipline, it will eventually be easier to practice these behaviors daily…and I won’t be overwhelmed with all of the food choices during the holidays!
So, I will be tracking my progress (and my setbacks, if there are any) here! I’ll let you know the fresh veggies that I’m eating, how I did with no sweets and what my exercise for the day was! The number on the scale might not change, and my pants might never fit again, but I’m ok with that because I know that I’ll be treating my body the way it should be treated.
But this isn’t just for me! YOU’RE INVITED TO UNSTUFF YOUR TURKEY, TOO! If you’re feeling the same as me, please join me. I’m terrible at self discipline, so I’m going to need all of the help, companionship and encouragement that I can get!
Who’s with me?!
P.S. Yes, I ate that dough ball. But it was my last one. I don’t know if that’s good or bad for this turkey.